Perfect
By J.Keys
It really is too bad
When you look but do not see
You pick one simple thing
And wrongly make it me
I suppose that is the way
Of fallen-natured man
A fault-first view avoids reflection
More than blindness can
Accusations stand self-conscious
With mask and stain so cruel
With this, your way, be on your way
Instead…? try everybody’s fool…
True Identity
By J. Keys
Miles gone
Far and wide
And many yet to travel
Yet length of stride
Against this tide
Set upon I do unravel
Much unseen
Though mirrors true
Reflections also lie
To say of you
From a kill to a view
Through glass and cross and sky
Starting now
From table to gate
A line of sight unmired
The nature of fate
As such things are never late
Get some rest, you indeed look tired
Noted
By J. Keys
If you’re not here to stick; go away
If you’d rather not or aren’t sure; don’t stay
I haven’t been here long
But long enough to cut short
Those that lack in why
Those that self in retort
Those that just arrived, just now
Those without law or court
No reason is no reason
As paper walls of words no fort
So mark the rhyme and the season
A winter’s summer discontent
Rather lethal, more than loaded
That which does not kill us so
Such lines best now …so noted
Babble
By J. Keys
I’m not unhappy, but I know I’m not happy right now
I’m not fully idle, but I am not inspired either
I see opportunities in front of me, and I:
a. don’t pursue them
OR
b. rationalize some deep perception to not pursue them
I have stability in my position, but my confidence is not
Sometimes I think I have an idea of where to begin
Only to find out I have no idea what I’m doing
And then realize that nothing is different
It’s the same feeling
It’s the same speed
It’s the same scenarios (and outcomes)
It’s the same place
What’s the point in writing a song about
When someone else has already done so
And said it better than I ever could
My struggle to sing
Is like my struggle to hope
Or to believe that I can have that wonderful warmth
In my heart
Like I once did before
It’s all around me
It’s all a song written
Played
Broadcasted
I am resigned to listen
Only listen
I want freedom from this
From listening and feeling some way I can’t be
I want freedom from wanting to be somewhere else other than I am
I want freedom from hope for the better
I don’t want to be happy where I am
I want to be free from the places I’m not
I have God
I have faith
This is something I misunderstood
Struggled that maybe I did not have these things
Or that I didn’t understand them at all
But I do
It’s not the big picture I can’t see
It’s not life after death
It’s life now
The Beginning
By J. Keys
And I saw her sitting there
Waiting
Unassuming so…
Kind of there and somewhere else
Perhaps in my own mind
Waiting there
Or maybe there to go
Not in haste
But against the clock
I cast off my perch and way
To take a chance
Exposed
Without advantage
Or a clever thing to say
And I saw her sitting there
And I think for a moment
She looked right through me
And I almost
Just so almost
Stepped aside…
But couldn’t make it to be
So halfway between being caught
And resisting the temptation
She saw me standing there
And few of others
Have I ever wondered?
What she saw
Inside of me and of her stare
Was it here?
Was it there?
Was it somewhere else?
Was it almost?…
Or was it really just…
So in a moment we met and passed
As my life has come to this so much
Beginning dared as we parted
But never so in such a way
Never in a single day
And never, ever
As it started…
Where are you going?
By J. Keys
I thought I should tell you
That one day
I will know
One day I will know
And it will make me smile
It will make my tears cry
Instead of me
Because I will be happy
And all the other nonsense
All the other failures
Will be lost
And they
They alone
Will cry for themselves
Because they couldn’t see
They couldn’t see beyond their sense
And I won’t be sad
For them
For anything
And I won’t hate them either
I’ll just be glad
I’m not where they are
Anyhow
I just thought I should tell you
That one day
You might wish you knew too
You might wish you knew then
And if you do
It’s too late, so don’t ask…
So wherever you’re going
Wherever you are
I know
And I thought I should tell you
This Faith
By J. Keys
In the city of sin
I met an angel
I shook her hand
And she asked me why I believe
So I told her this…
Of everything I’ve learned
Of everything I know and have
Only the patience I’ve built
Within my tears of faith
Could bring me unwittingly
A thousand miles…
To her
Here
Now
On this night….
A blind rendezvous I could never design
But only pray for
And that is what make me believe
No Thanks
By J. Keys
*Dedicated to the weak and selfish. There’s no room for you here…
You know this really bothers me
What you’ve done
Maybe it’s that old adage
…until it’s gone
But that’s just it
You never went away
You were always there
In my mind to stay
I guess you couldn’t take it
And for a brief moment I wonder
If I was simply fooled
Simply taken under
Then I take a look around
Watching as you fall
I shake my head and sigh a little
And realize you were never really there at all
You’re a cause that lost your way
You’ve set fire to your roots
I did love you very much
So take that and burn it too
I haven’t time for you
Nor any of your kind
The blinds are blue, the sun is rising
I’m leaving you behind
So thanks indeed for everything
If anything was true
But no thanks
For your guilt
Your pain
Or your pretty rationales
Those I’ll return to you…
Hack (My Extreme)
By J. Keys
I do a lot of things
Some of them well
Some quite well
But it’s not good enough
It’s not to any extreme
It can’t compete
Maybe I don’t make it compete
So middle of the road
Stretched beyond my means
I always say
From time to time
I’d make a great thief
A mad criminal
A dark mind
A shadow in the daylight
In the darkness
In front of you
You see a man
Around you
You hear a thunder
Oblivious you stare ahead
And I am everywhere but there
It’s not the need to
It’s not the convenience of the fact
It’s that I can
That I’m good at it
That I can overpower every construct
Every rule
Every convention
Everything that foundations this structure
This is my extreme
Hidden
Potential
A mind that finds every hole
Every crack
Every critical break point
The things you want to keep from everyone
To keep your power over others
But I enter
Like water finding ground
Unstoppable
Shapeless, formless
But solid to my own end
Encoded
By J. Keys
Why don’t you just say it?
Whatever happened to honesty?
Everybody looks at it
And they say, “Oh, hmmm, interesting.”
What they’re really thinking is
“That is f**ked up!”
So why don’t you just say it?
I’m not showing you this to make myself feel good
Or justified
Sane
Alive
Creative…
Because I already do
And I’m not trying to scare the hell out of you either
You’re scared already
I’m testing your resolve
I’m looking inside of you (not the other way around)
I’m taking your conviction
Slapping it in the face
I’m prosecuting your ability
To stand with me
Are you really that afraid?
Or do you see what I see
The code beyond the encryption
Those things between the lines
The dreams
The nightmares
The truth
So why don’t you just say it?